1 Step Forward, 2 Steps Back

That's how I feel today. Every time I think I'm getting somewhere, I get knocked back a couple steps. I feel like one of those blowup clowns that you knock down and they keep popping back up. I guess the good thing is that I keep popping back up, right?

Long story short... I woke up this morning around 8:00 and felt a strange peacefulness in my house. No kids were screaming and it just seemed too calm. I knew before I got out of bed that the new daycare kids did not come back. I got up, walked downstairs and asked my mom what happened. She said the mom called, they didn't like my contract so they weren't coming back. She wanted me to call her at work. So I did. She explained that they didn't think I should have paid holidays/time off etc. I didn't say anything and didn't defend it, I didn't feel like wasting my time. Then she said her husband would be over to pick up the check and bring me one for just yesterday and to get their things. I said "Ok, bye" and that was that. I'm pretty sure they also didn't like that fact that I asked them to have their kids dressed before they brought them in the mornings, but oh well.

Before I even walked downstairs I had this song in my head. I keep playing it over in my mind. I know He gives and takes away... but I will still choose to praise Him. Something good is coming my way. He's proven that too many times for me to worry!

Blessed Be Your Name
by Matt Redman
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Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name

Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name